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What most people don't see behind "Strong moms"

 People hear the term “co-parenting” and picture teamwork. Shared responsibility. Communication. Equal effort. Two parents continuing to put their children first, even after the relationship ends. But sometimes… it isn’t co-parenting at all. Sometimes it’s one parent carrying the entire mental load, financial load, emotional load, scheduling load, and responsibility for the children — while the other parent drifts in and out around the edges when it’s convenient. We split in 2022. It’s now 2026, and in four years, I have received no financial help toward raising our children. No help with sports. No help with school fees. No help with fuel, travel, hotels, fundraising, practices, equipment, or the endless hidden costs that come with raising active kids. At the beginning, I tried to keep things fair and simple. I didn’t ask for everything. I simply asked if he could cover half of sports and school fees. He agreed. But agreement means nothing without action. Every time a new fee come...
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You can't keep waiting for someday.

    There as a season recently where I felt completely emotionally checked out.  Life felt heavy all of the time.  I felt like I was failing at everything- failing as a mom, failing to keep up with the house, failing to keep myself together.  Even the smallest things started to feel overwhelming, and I found myself slipping into this place where I was constantly feeling sorry for myself and slightly mourning the life I used to have.  By that I mean, I miss my old co-workers, I missed having a job and feeling accomplished, I miss my old friends and my daily chats with them.       One of the hardest parts of moving has been realizing that relationships change, even the ones you thought never would. The people you used to talk to every day slowly become people you barely hear from. Life keeps moving for everyone, and sometimes you don’t even realize how disconnected you’ve become until you find out something major happened in someone’s life...

Parent Burn Out and stress.

Are parents allowed to say they are burnt out?  Is this a thing?  This is the time of year for me I seem to feel it the most.  I am tired.  I am here wearing clothes I have had for years, some bras are literally on their last threads, while my kids are sporting new hockey sticks and gear.   I want the world for my kids and I do everything in my power to give it to them, or help them get there.  It just adds up, we go from football, to hockey, to rodeo and baseball.  There is not stop in-between the sports in this house.  It is a year round cycle.  Now now I know what you are saying as you read this.  If you can't handle it, stop the sports.  Here's the thing, I can complain, I can be tired but that is one thing I won't do.  I will not take this from their childhood so my life can be a little less hectic.  When we have kids its kind of this invisible contact.  You are there to support them, to be their everything ...

Stay at home mom guilt.

 I didn't think I would be writing another post about being a stay at home mom.  Again if you follow along you probably read the post about how last winter I transitioned from working mom to a stay at home mom and the challenges that came along with that.  It was a confusing and hard time, but I have learned to love this role.  My kids are warm, fed, and healthy.  That is the main goal is it not?  I have this opportunity to be at home, take care of the kids and be able to make every single activity, appointment, play date, or whatever it may be.  I get to be there.  Do we have to be slightly more careful with money without two incomes, of course we do, but right now its working and working well.  The kids didn't have to cut back in extra programs, in fact now they are able to do more.  We now have the freedom to be able to attend more things, get more things done at home, and be relaxed and happy doing it!       Recen...

Anger after Divorce

 Today is a little bit of a heavy blog.  It is something that has been weighing heavily on me lately, and this seems to be my outlet to let things out.  I find the more I type it out the more I feel it and begin to understand it.  Lets talk anger.  Anger is a complex emotion that everyone tells you, let go.  Let it go and it will feel so much better and give you the relief you have been searching for.  For me personally I thought I had let go of this anger years ago.  Turns out I didn't let it go, I pushed it down and now its surfacing like crazy.  I have gone back and forth on if I should write this for people to read, but I thought I wonder how many people out there are in similar situations and are struggling as well?  So I guess lets get into it.      If you read along with this blog you know I separated from my husband in 2022.  This circumstances around it are all in here previous so I won't go into great detail...

Finding your serenity after tragedy

 I can't even begin to count how many times I have tried to create my serenity place.  You know, that perfect spot that just makes you feel calm and relaxed.  Life seems to be moving so fast, and it can be so stressful we all crave that place of peace.  My life has been a rocky road, with lots of ups and downs and I really have never found that place that just takes it all away. Until now.   I remember when we bought our first home, cute small house in a cute small town.  Life seemed full of excitement.  The plans I had, the things I was going to do to make this place my dream.  I started house renovations, while I loved making the space my own, it came with stress and anxiety at the same time.  We were running on limited funds, and let's face it, projects cost.  They cost more than money, they cost the time, the dedication and you have to be on the same page.  Every step ahead, I just found myself wanting more, something else...

School vs life experience

  So this is a bit of a different post, more of a rant I suppose.  As you all know my oldest son is big into rodeo.  This year he decided to join the Canadian pro circuit, and is doing well, he is sitting 9th overall in the Jr. Steer riding.  If you do not follow rodeo, this is a huge accomplishment.  He is competing against kids from all across Canada.  So it is safe to say, with him I am raising a rodeo kid.  Rodeo kids are just a different breed.  They are hard headed, dedicated and passionate about what they do.  Due to his new schedule of chasing the pro rodeos, the last few months of school he has had to miss a day or sometimes two every week.  My son does not struggle with school, he is smart.  His grades are good, learning the materials is not what is hard for him, what is hard for him is the format that they learn.  Some kids just are not built to sit in a classroom for that long every day.  I am not saying school...