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You can't keep waiting for someday.

    There as a season recently where I felt completely emotionally checked out.  Life felt heavy all of the time.  I felt like I was failing at everything- failing as a mom, failing to keep up with the house, failing to keep myself together.  Even the smallest things started to feel overwhelming, and I found myself slipping into this place where I was constantly feeling sorry for myself and slightly mourning the life I used to have.  By that I mean, I miss my old co-workers, I missed having a job and feeling accomplished, I miss my old friends and my daily chats with them.       One of the hardest parts of moving has been realizing that relationships change, even the ones you thought never would. The people you used to talk to every day slowly become people you barely hear from. Life keeps moving for everyone, and sometimes you don’t even realize how disconnected you’ve become until you find out something major happened in someone’s life...
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Struggle of trying to handle co parenting

 This is a post I probably should not be writing right now, my hands are shaking with anger.  Co-parenting, so much fun! I hope you can all read the sarcasm because that line is full of it.  I truly do not understand why some people need to make things so difficult.  My partner and his ex co parent amazing I think.  They communicate, they have each others backs with the boys, and they are there for anything that counts.  A kid has trouble in school, they talk between themselves then deal with the situation.  They both love their children enough to leave their disagreements behind and just be parents.  Why can all situations not be like this!      My situation, I have an ex who has no real custody of the kids, he sees them on holidays from school and long weekends if I can make it work to get them there.  I have never held the kids back from going to stay down there.  Times he has asked for them to come for a week over scho...
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Finding your tribe.

So here it is, you took the plunge and moved to a new place where you don't know anyone.  Scary.  That is the only word to describe it, for me anyway.  I know there is people out there who could say moving was exciting and an adventure.  Not me.  Change is scary.  I am a very shy introverted person so going somewhere out of my comfort zone was terrifying.  Making that decision to take the plunge out of my comfort zone was one I went back and forth on so many times.  Fear held me back.  A change like this took me so long to commit to, if I didn't have the support of some really amazing people behind me I never would have done it.  I thank god for those friends every single day.       First hockey season here I met a few parents that we would be growing with year to year and this is where I found the first few members of my tribe.  First Amorita, the most outgoing and friendly person you could ever come across in y...
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Parent Burn Out and stress.

Are parents allowed to say they are burnt out?  Is this a thing?  This is the time of year for me I seem to feel it the most.  I am tired.  I am here wearing clothes I have had for years, some bras are literally on their last threads, while my kids are sporting new hockey sticks and gear.   I want the world for my kids and I do everything in my power to give it to them, or help them get there.  It just adds up, we go from football, to hockey, to rodeo and baseball.  There is not stop in-between the sports in this house.  It is a year round cycle.  Now now I know what you are saying as you read this.  If you can't handle it, stop the sports.  Here's the thing, I can complain, I can be tired but that is one thing I won't do.  I will not take this from their childhood so my life can be a little less hectic.  When we have kids its kind of this invisible contact.  You are there to support them, to be their everything ...
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Stay at home mom guilt.

 I didn't think I would be writing another post about being a stay at home mom.  Again if you follow along you probably read the post about how last winter I transitioned from working mom to a stay at home mom and the challenges that came along with that.  It was a confusing and hard time, but I have learned to love this role.  My kids are warm, fed, and healthy.  That is the main goal is it not?  I have this opportunity to be at home, take care of the kids and be able to make every single activity, appointment, play date, or whatever it may be.  I get to be there.  Do we have to be slightly more careful with money without two incomes, of course we do, but right now its working and working well.  The kids didn't have to cut back in extra programs, in fact now they are able to do more.  We now have the freedom to be able to attend more things, get more things done at home, and be relaxed and happy doing it!       Recen...
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Anger after Divorce

 Today is a little bit of a heavy blog.  It is something that has been weighing heavily on me lately, and this seems to be my outlet to let things out.  I find the more I type it out the more I feel it and begin to understand it.  Lets talk anger.  Anger is a complex emotion that everyone tells you, let go.  Let it go and it will feel so much better and give you the relief you have been searching for.  For me personally I thought I had let go of this anger years ago.  Turns out I didn't let it go, I pushed it down and now its surfacing like crazy.  I have gone back and forth on if I should write this for people to read, but I thought I wonder how many people out there are in similar situations and are struggling as well?  So I guess lets get into it.      If you read along with this blog you know I separated from my husband in 2022.  This circumstances around it are all in here previous so I won't go into great detail...
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Things you do for family.

      I have not wrote any blogs in awhile and its because our life has been a crazy whirlwind lately.  Our yard and lives have literally been torn up and tossed around all because we love our little family and will do anything for it.  Let's get into it.          This all started a few years ago when we got the information that my spouses father had been diagnosed with Alzheimer's.  My spouse was worried about them being so far away, so I chimed in, why can't we move their house to our yard?  I think this took him by surprise.  He looked at me baffled, "You would be ok with that?"  ..... Why on earth would I not be okay with that?  That is what you do for family.  Your parents raised you, they put off their own stuff in life to make sure you had everything you needed, and still do.  It is the very least we can do to return the favor.  So, other family members were called plans were made and h...
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